I really don't see the point in living

[RadiatorBlues]

I'm not suicidal.
I just feel so so shit.
I'm a completely and utterly worthless human.
I can't get any decent job.
I don't fit in with normal people socially. I can't keep friends.
I hate my husband.
We have kids and I'm just not interested in them. I play along a bit.
I am on ADs so there's nothing to see the GP About.
There's nothing anybody can fix with me or for me.
I'm just pathetic and I don't want to have my life anymore. I want to be dead. I don't want to exist.
I'm not suicidal. I know I can't die because of my kids but I'm just so sad. Every day is so miserable.
In not working and kids are full time as of recently.
I'm a complete and utter failure in every respect of life.
I'm fat (a few sizes) because I don't go the gym even though I have membership.
I can't do any job.
I just wish I was dead

I could have wrote that almost word for word op, so I have no advice but just to let you know you're not alone

Thanks Vanda.
Nothing else to say really.

Hey Radiator.

Sorry you're feeling so bad.

How long have you been on ADs? Depression has a way of making everything look shit. Why do you feel like a failure? Did you work previously - has there been a lifestyle change for you?

The gym isn't for everyone. However, when I was depressed I found it to be a lifeline. The trick is to find something you like. My favourite thing is to use the weights machines and try to set new goals. Feeling physically strong can be reassuring... it makes me feel more mentally capable as well. Plus exercise gives endorphins. Or maybe a fun class like Zumba, something that will get you moving and make you feel a bit better.

I feel the same, except I don't have a reason to stick about. I can't have kids and I have a super rare condition that has messed with all the things people take for granted. I just don't see the point anymore

@RadiatorBlues What would help to make to make your life bearable?