stuck in hospital

[Aveiam]

Anyone around for a hand hold? Been admitted, feel like shit.

They've increased dosage. I'm trying to distract myself but just feel v sad

Much love and strength Aveiam. It's shit feeling like this but I promise you it can get better.

My Mum was admitted after my baby brother died and it was incredibly tough.

It's very disorientating and I miss my mum

It's very disorientating and I miss my mum and my little girl

Is your little girl staying with your mum for now? Do they have a family room where they could come and visit you without it being scary? Last time I was an inpatient DP brought the DCs up to see me. We all sat in a family room and had a picnic. It was lovely. Once I'd been there a bit longer I was allowed to go out for an hour or two with them as I was voluntary. You've been in my thoughts

No they're both passed away it sounds lovely to have a picnic together with your family thank you for your message

What have you got with you do to with your hands my love?

Scoff if you like but colouring can be engrossing, distracting and calming. I use it as a tool to help manage my anxiety.

You've got your phone I'm guessing and that's great. What games to you have? Have you downloaded anything new in a while?

I'm so sorry you were hit. Units can be frightening and everyone in their own world of pain. Have you your own room where you can go to be safe?

You have done a very very brave thing by seeking and accepting help.

I can't really concentrate enough to do anything like that. I just want to stop :(

Every day, hour, minute that you keep going is a victory, Aveiam. Someone told me once just think about getting through the next 5 minutes. That's all you have to do, 5 minutes. Don't think about after the 5 minutes, just the next 5 minutes. Once you've survived those 5 minutes, then you can think about the next 5 minutes.

Oh aveiam I am so sorry. I didn't know. I hope I didn't upset you. I'm sure they are together somewhere having a picnic in the sky

The adult colouring books do take a fair amount of concentration, but a kids colouring book might be good?

You didn't upset me,it not your fault. I feel sick and tired and so scared

I hate adult colouring books. Too many lines and I get anxious about doing it "wrong" children's ones are much more calming.

How was today OP?

Yeah why are adult colouring books all so complicated?!?! There should be different levels for how challenging a task you're looking for - seeing as the point is engaging in mindful activity, not producing A-level Art coursework!

Sick and tired and scared all sound like completely reasonable responses to your situation, Aveiam. I think it's absolutely fair enough that anyone going through significant mental health difficulties gets fucking sick and tired of it and wishes we could just be 'normal'. Being scared is a bit different though; I try to think about what im scared of, is it legitimate - am I right to be scared of it, how can I tackle that etc. hope that makes sense. 2am and .

I think being in hospital is probably a legitimate reason to be scared, they're horrible places. But I think munchkin is right that it might help to pinpoint exactly what it is that's scaring you.

Sick and tired sound like very appropriate responses. Have you started any new medication? They could well be side-effects of that too.

Ave sorry I haven't been on much the last few days. You any better?

Sending you a big hug, Aveiam. You aren't alone even though it feels like it right now. Have been there too and life can only get better.

I don't know :( I hate it all

It takes a while for meds too kick in unfortunately I've been fucked the last time m

Posted too soon

Changing my meds still also messes me up and that's on the outside.

Have you any hobbies you could do in the hospital?

Reading even daft little games candy crush, farm frenzy?

Ave you ok?

Hope you're hanging in there Aveiam, we're still here for you

I don't want to do it anymore. I just feel desperate

Im still here what's been happening?

I just want to be gone now, that's all