falling apart and just need a hand to hold I think

[FrancineSmith]

I've suffered with depression for as long as I can remember. I've had about 6 months with no ADs as I was feeling 'together' for the first time in years. I've just broken down at work over a very minor thing and it's made me realise that I'm not doing as well as I'd thought I was.
I'm trying to be proactive so I don't sink too far and end up losing my job, so I've got a Drs appointment in a few minutes. Feeling like a massive failure to be back here again (even though I know that's irrational as I have no control) and I can't stop crying.

Oh sod mental illness - why does it make us feel ashamed and a failure. We don't feel like this when we're physically ill. It's just something else to make us feel shite - oh and the stigma of course.

Looks like you need to go back on the meds. Wishing you well.

Thank you Nana. Doc has prescribed me citalopram again, which worked ok before. I'm still sitting in the car park trying to psych myself up to go back to work. I know if I don't go back today it will be harder tomorrow, but I'm dreading seeing people who saw me all upset and flustered on the way out.