In my work we're expected to travel as requested. Since having ds (nearly 3) I've turned down the requests, as my anxiety about leaving him is torturous.
I've been asked again, for three months time. I've calculated I could do the trip in less than 3 days, but the very thought causes my chest to tighten and nightmare scenarios to run through my mind.
The consequence of not going is it holds me back in my career and I loose respect from the male dominated team.
But it's just so hard.
I don't know what to do. Help me mn.
For context it would be abroad (uk to USA) and I've never left him overnight, he bf to sleep and cosleeps.