i cant sit with this a second more

[howcanikeepdoingthis]

My head is all over and I feel totally overwhelmed by my emotions. It feels like I only have one option. I hate feeling like this. Why does it never go away and leave me the fuck alone.

I am glad that you are in one piece and still here. Keep going.

How are you doing?

Still here.

Glad to hear it, Thinking of you xx

Thank you foxy. The rapid change in moods and emotions makes me feel really crazy, my head is noisy and I am worried about voices. I know for sure though that I love my children and need to stay here and stay well for them.

Is there anyone to look after your children so that you can just get out and go for a walk, quietly on your own?

OP - I suffer with this everyday, tried just about every anti-depressant, currently on two different ones along with lithium (even though I'm not bipolar).

Tried CBT, Psychodynamic counselling, etc etc.

Sometimes I wish I could go in to a coma for 3 to 6 months and wake up to see if I feel any better.

What I find, in my worst days, is I have to sleep the feeling off. Getting to sleep when feeling like that can be near impossible so the Doctor gives me short courses of sleeping tablets for when it is at it's worst.

Thanks for sharing your experiences bananaman, and sorry you have to deal with such shit. Ive tried lithium in the past as I do have a bipolar diagnosis but I never found it helpful. Can totally empathise with the coma thing, I would love to have a couple of months break from life!

Foxy, I managed to get a night on my own this weekend which was much appreciated. However the house is a total mess and I need to get everyone ready for school/nursery and me ready for work by myself today so feel overwhelmed.

I won't tell you not to worry about mess, because I always do! And getting my 2 who are now 12 and 9 ready for school is still a bit of an ordeal, and I don't work, so best wishes and I am sure you will get through it. Everyday you get through when feeling like this, is strengthening - honestly. And you will come out the other side (even if it's just for a while), and find life easier again.

And meanwhile, your children will be getting a little bit less dependant on you and hopefully able to sleep (one of mine still hasn't totally mastered that!). Thinking of you.