I don't even know where to start or how to say this. I think I started feeling rubbish in about July maybe August. Things at work were going bad and I was feeling down or agitated all the time. Crying over stupid things and causing unnecessary arguments with hubby. I decided to change my job and do something different as that would stop it all. Oh god how wrong was I?
This was 5 months ago and just recently can feel these emotions getting worse. My relationships at home are suffering badly and it's my fault. I am just on edge and agitated all the time so no one can say anything to me without me snapping. I don't mean to it just comes out and then escalates.
Changing jobs wasn't the answer I haven't settled in to the new role and am looking for something else maybe part time for now. But the thought of going into work after a few days off is on my mind constantly my hands are clamy, my chest gets tight, I have cried, I can't sleep properly through worrying about it and really want to throw up. Money is a major worry at the minute and that's keeping me up all night too. I feel like I am sinking and can't catch my breath what do I do? Tried telling my hubby that I feel like I am drowning but he doesn't get it.
Please can someone help I can't go on like this I don't know which way to turn and my chest is even getting tight writing this. 😓