I am making the most god awful mess of my life and that of others.
I am married and have bipolar type two.
I have been hypomanic for several weeks. I have been throwing myself at men. I even had sex with one, to my deep shame. Last night, I got drunk and exchanged explicit texts with a male friend.
The mania is addictive, as is the "thrill" of flirting / sexting / having sexual encounters.
I am on medication but it hasn't stopped me feeling high.