I've been very lucky to have found a great counsellor who ive been seeing for the past two years. In this time I have come to terms with quite a lot - my previous abusive relationship, resulting self esteem issues and depression. It's come to the point where We have talked through these issues and although I can't say they don't ever affect me anymore, they don't consume me or leave me emotional on a daily basis. My depression is ongoing but stable at the moment and I am on medication for this.
It's come to the point where I have increased times between counselling sessions and I have one more in three weeks time which is likely to be my last. I am already panicky about this although I know rationally that I cannot rely on it forever and need to try and be self sufficient.
My counsellor knows things about me that I have never shared with anyone else, and I guess I just feel a loss at not have that background support there any more. I also don't know how I would cope if I had a relapse with my depression.
Has anyone been through this? How do you move forward without it? And is it normal to feel like this? How should I approach my last session so that I feel things have been rounded off well and I can try to move forward? I feel a bit of an idiot but feel lost already.