I've tried to figure out whether I have depression, aniexty, PTSD, I just don't know
I'm very lonely, I know that much. I only have my DP for company. We have a 2 year old boy, who we love to bits but it's been anything other than easy
I have no energy, no desire to live, I can barely get out of bed sometimes, I call myself names, I hate going out on my own, just before I leave the house my heart starts beating and i constantly think about whether I'm going to be a nuisance to cars by trying to cross the road, I don't laugh at things anymore, I'm just existing, life has no colour or meaning
I have no confidence, no beliefs, my body is a mess, my house is a mess, I cry constantly, I talk to myself just so I have company
I'm a shell of the person I once used to be
Very scared to go to my GP as they tried to section me last time 