Is it time to see my GP?

[swoosh]

I don?t know if need to see my doctor or if I?m over-reacting. I suspect that if I?m considering it, I do need to but maybe I just need to pull myself together?I can?t think straight and it?s hard to be objective.

I do have a lot going on in my life atm so most of this is related to that.

Most of the time I:

Feel miserable (not all the time, sometimes I am quite chripy)
Lack energy/ motivation to get up & out (although I do try and feel better when I do)
Cry myself to sleep
Cry during the day
Am very emotional yet I feel sort of empty & useless
Am really lonely
Am a crap mother & want to be better but just can?t work out how
Ignore e-mails & avoiding making arrangements to see friends
Can?t sleep (hence posting now)

My head is full of thoughts & nothing will settle so I can?t think straight & work out what I need to do.

I have a history of depression but don?t remember what it felt like. Am I just being a misery? Do I need a kick up the backside or medical help?

Please let us know how you got on Swoosh, I too am considering talking to someone probably my GP as things are deteriorating for me, i have two adorable children, a very active 20 month old daughter and a 7 week old boy and very loving helpful partner but am not coping at all, crying over stupid things, angry a lot of the time with my partner and my children, i feel so guilty, like i'm such a bad, useless person for not coping when so many other mothers do brilliantly, i've read other links about PND and don't know what is wrong with me as i don't have all the symptoms others have, all i know is this is what i've always wanted i should be enjoying every second instead i'm a right miserable bitch 90% of the time - does anyone else feel like me?

Update:

I did go to the appointment today and, although felt sick and was shaking on the way in, I am glad I went.

I was a bit weepy & pathetic but the doctor was lovely and listened, asked a few questions and seemed concerned especially regarding my history and having no help. She suggested ADs, sleeping tablets and counselling. I refused sleeping tablets but have prescription for ADs and spoke to the counselling people who took some information and will find me the 'right' person to talk to.

I have to go back and see her in a few weeks to see how things are, but was all quite positive really.

So, if anyone else is feeling the way I am, it is definitely worth seeing the dr.

Thanks to everyone who said I should go - I really needed a bit of a push. I just hope that this all helps and that soon enough I'll be back to my old self...

havent posted, and didnt really know what to say, but, glad you got help hun xXx {{hugs}}

Swoosh Well done for going.

I'm really pleased that you did.

I refused sleeping tablets as well.

I've been offered them by 4 different doctors and psychiatrists.

Think they've given up now, because i ended up telling them (politely of course), where to shove them!!!!

Get as much help as they offer you and you'll soon be feeling better.

Jodypops Your turn now!!!!
If you feel you need help then you really must be seen by your doctor.

Don't leave it, as the problem will only get worse.

Keep in touch for support, you're not alone in this.

why didnt you want the sleeping tablets? I had some once, and you can wake up easily with them... they just help abit.

I knew you'd be pleased, fussymummy!

Now, I just have to get the prescription & get started. Am going to try to eat better too, I'm sure that will help.

I didn't want sleeping tablets because i heted the thought of not being able to wake if my kids need me in the night!!!!

Swoosh i'm ok thanks.
Still enjoying all my texts and emails and pics of course!!!!!

Also looking forward to starting the cambridge diet on friday!!!

That's great Swoosh - so please your doc was encouraging and understanding, my doc is horrible - he is rude and ignorant, i would have changed yonks ago but we've been meaning to move anyway.
thanks fussy for the encouragement, i'm actually having a good day today, feeling much better surprisingly as had a nightmare night with both kids full of colds and waking me up every hour or so. my bf has gone away until sunday to birmingham for work so am going to try real hard to cope and see how i go.

ps: what's the cambridge diet?

well done swoosh - at getting councelling!! which in itself is a miricle.

seriously well done for doing something and not sitting on yer arse
xx

Jodypops The cambridge diet is a mainly liquid based diet to lose weight quickly!!!

You have a very low calorie intake.

You pick a combonation of soups, shakes and bars.

Have you heard of 'lighter life'? If so, it's the same, but half the price.

Theres a thread about cambridge diet.

Pleased you're having a good day.

Swoosh Jodypops where are you both??

Hope things are ok for you?

thanks fussy for the info. i've been home alone the last few days and was dreading it it's been ok, i've actually found myself having fun witht e kids which is something i hadn't experienced in a long time, even though both of them are full of cold and quite hard work, even maqde it out the house to pop around the corner to primark today!!!

Well done Jody, really good to know you're ok.

Sorry fussymummy... thanks for checking on us! Good luck with the diet.

I'm doing ok atm, no miracles but haven't cried for almost a week! Must be getting some self control.

Thanks everyone for all your support, I really appreciate it.