Can it get better?
The other day dh confronted me again about depression, using my non existent libido (and it's impact on his self worth) as a starter.
I eventually admitted that perhaps I am. It's not how I was 3 years ago with pnd, but it is, I now accept, depression. I plan to go to gp on Friday.
He is currently taking ADS, been a few months.
I have been acting irrationally for months, maybe years. 6 months ago, he snooped my messages, concluded I was having an EA. I wasn't. I, very ebatassingly had made it up, as escapism? Or for something non dull to say to a woman I know. I like the man in question, but not like that. If the opportunity for an ea or a real affair presented itself, I wouldn't entertain it for a second. I tried and partially succeeded in convincing dh of this.
This morning he threw this and my lack of trying to make him feel desired or included in my face. Upset me badly. I cried in the playground and have been in bits all day.
He messaged to ask how I was and I told him. He threw that at me again.
I don't know what I'm asking. I feel so hurt and it seems like only his depression/ego matters. Never mind what made me do any.of that in the first place.
Any words of wisdom? Or anything.