PND/Citalopram Advice

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I like to think of myself as a sane person, normal and fiendly. My ds2 is now 12 weeks and for the past 8 weeks or so i have felt really tearfu all the time and just generally feel like a dark cloud is over me all the time. No sex drive and avoid friends/going out with friends. The thought of returning to work is killing me inside. Thought about death last night and it realy freaked me. (no suicide thoughts) and I'm really protective over kids.
I think it is PND so went to docs this morn and he's given me Citalopram 20mg day.
I just want to know if this is actualy going to make me feel a bit brighter - I'm not severley depressed but I dont want to get that way., I hope that I can take these for a while and then I'll be ok after.
Any advice please?

only just read this..how are you atm?. I was diagnosed with pnd`when dd was 6 months old as I really didn't think anything could be done 2 help me iykwim.

I was prescribed citalopram and was actuallt terrified to take them, felt i would loose the little control i had. I also was negative that they would help me, tbh i felt ike this because i was depressed. But after support frrom dh and mners i took them andalthough i suffered side effects i preservered. I can honestly say that i noticed a huge change in myself and dh agreed !! yeah sure i still had down days BUT these were expected and were a sign that the tablets hadn't taken over me iykiwm. they were feelings that everyoneexperiences from time to time.

i hope christmas and new year went well and let me know how things are.

BTW I wason them for 6 months, till i discovered i was pregnant !! i stopped them immediatly but found myself in that familiar black hole. Counselling has helped heaps. I am prepared for things happening again once ds2b arrives but this time i won't be so backward in coming forward and won't be so reluctant to go back on citalopram.

Thanks for replying. i feel like there is no one out there!
just been looking for some kind of support group and there aren't any local ones. i took the tablets for about a week and felt dreadful so I stopped them. things dont seem to have improved, been to docs and he is putting me in touch with psychiatric nurse? waiting list though.
i'm tearful alot. i think 'desperate' inside is the best word to describe how i feel sometimes. although it seems to come over in waves. its really hard to explain how i feel exactly. and i cant seem to express anything to my dp or my mum. they know i feel sad but i havent really talked to either of them - i'm worried that if i say how i feel i'll go mad and they might think i'm weired.
Does this make sense? i'd really appreciate any words of wisdom.

yes it does make sense i have pnd and though i have good days i also get some bad ones. when i found it hard to express how i felt, i made dp read brooke shields bok "then the rain came (?down)". it was hard to read in some places, some bits made me cry but it was well worth it.

you feel desperate because you want someone to understand how you feel inside and for them to tell you that what you're feeling isn't going to last and maybe, just maybe, for them to be able to take away the pain. you feel desperate because you want to feel "normal" again, you're sick ofhaving a black cloud around you or being in the black hole or fog and not being able to see the flowers or grass clearly. there was a post by a mner called rhubarb i think that described pnd perfectly (if anyone ever can) i shall try and find the link for you. good luck sweetheart, you aren't alone x

Hello,

I started citalopram when my daughter was 18mths old - I have tried to carry on regardless and the PND caught up with me in a big way. What I would say is that after a few weeks on the citalopram I began to feel so much better and relaxed about things - but caution, do not stop taking suddenly - I made that mistake and came down to earth with a bang - the doctor has advised that I reduce the dosage over time.

Go for it - you will feel the benefits and start feeling human again x x