Sad all the time

[livieast]

I'm sad all the time. i feel so lonely. I've been in a long distance relationship for over a year, he's moving here soon when he can afford it, but we're only young so it's taking time. I cry every night. I hate my life. I don't see the point in being here any more. I hate my job. My family are unsupportive. I live at home and I hate it. I get screamed at constantly for the stupidest things like a child - I'm 23 for fuck sake. My sisters don't get treated like this. I'm not even sure why I'm writing this down. No one will reply. I can't take it any more. I don't know what to do. Sorry.

sorry for your situation livi.
living at those conditions at home must be so difficult. and it is sad that you have no one to talk to. don't you have any other relatives to talk to and help you for your family to be nicer to you?
can you look for a job that you will like more?
you are very young, you will have many good things to live for.
best wishes.

I always feel bad complaining about my parents. They're not horrible or evil people or anything. But when mum is in a bad mood everyone has to be. It's awful. And being the eldest blame automatically goes to me all the time.
I've not got any other family. No grandparents, they're all dead now.
I don't know what jobs to even look for. I don't feel like I'm good enough for any. I know what I'd like to do but j can't afford course fees to train and I have a degree (which I regret) so can't get funding to do anything else.
It's so hard.

can you try to ignore them when they are not nice to you when they are feeling bad? don't take it personal maybe.
career wise, can you go to job centre and ask their advice on what you doing atm, what degree you have and what you want to do. maybe they have funding for what you want to do.
try not to think everything is very hard. it feels that way to you now because I think you are a bit depressed now.

Could you look into getting a career development loan to fund your retraining? They have quite strict criteria, so you might not be eligible, but it's worth looking into.

I take everything so personally.

I need to try and find a local job centre, I have no idea where my local one might even be.

I tried looking into a career development loan before, but I seem to remember I wasn't eligible. I've got a stupid fine art degree, which I regret doing. I want to teach nursery, but I have no idea how to even start with it all.

Look up your local careers advice place. They will tell you how to move toward nursery work.

A one year PGCE in primary education, funded through a career development loan, bursary or local government financing is possible with a fine art degree.
Yes, its more debt but you'll have a well paid career eventually.