NC for this post. I am done. This Christmas day is the last I'm going to spend with Her screaming at me. Telling me that everything I eat and keep down will have to be sorted in January. Telling me to throw up the tiny bit i have eaten. My dd told my DB today that "mommy only eats a tiny bit, and no ice cream". And my pockets are full of the food I've been able to get away with hiding. I'm done. This is the last year She will dictate to me that being I control is more important than joining my family for Christmas lunch. I have a whole year to make that happen. Forgive me for posting this. I just needed to rant.