Feel like I'm losing the battle

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I just don't know what to do anymore. I took an overdose at 16 and right now I wish I'd succeeded. I'm just so fucking sick of this horrible disease...every time I think I'm finally getting on top of things something comes and knocks me back down again. Why bother?

I've spoken to my GP and he's upped my meds, I have 2 gorgeous small boys so there's no way I'd actually do anything, but I'm just so tired of fighting just to feel vaguely 'normal'

Your boys will love you for yourself as you are their world if they are young ones. That is real, pure and honest love that no one can take from you.

Hang on in there. This is a difficult time of year. xx

How are you feeling today?

I hope you have some support and some kind and thoughtful people around you.

Do you have help with the boys?

I'm still very low. My mum is arriving today to stay and help out with the boys. It's my works Christmas do tonight and I'm worried I'm just going to end up sobbing all night.