I am seeing my CBT therapist for the first time today after almost 6 weeks I first saw him when I had PND and since then he has helped me through a number of episodes of depression/anxiety and provided ongoing support - so sometines when I am well I might not see him for 2 or 3 months.
The thing is the last time I saw him I was on day 5 of stopping venlafaxine cold turkey. Because I was not doing as I was told my psych was refusing to help me and I emailed him saying I thouigh he was lacking in compassion. My therapist said he didn't think I should have sent the email and he didnt think I should have stopped the drugs. I know he is entitled to his opinion and it is not his job to agree with me but I really felt he took sides with my psych and was really upset about that.
Today is my first appointment since then, I didnt intially want to contact him as I felt our relationship had broken down but I have found his input life saving in the past and my GP encouraged me to make contact. I think she was right.
I am really nervous about it. I feel as if I dont know here to start. I dont want to go back over how he upset me as I think its pointless and I should just move on but I still feel upset about it. I am also worried about his room because I dont want to sit in the window where I can see my relection but I know that just sounds pathetic and attention seeking to raise. It is just making me really anxious.
As the appointment gets closer I am getting really agitated. I just dont know how to approach it.
Has anyone else had to rebuild a relationship with a therapist.