Acceptance, diagnosis and medication.

[Heaveniswaiting]

I'm really struggling to accept that I'm unwell. The more unwell I get, the more difficult it is to accept. I hate taking my medication and with that too, the more unwell I am the harder it is to take. My GP had a long chat with me today about accepting that I'm unwell. I've failed yet again to come off antipsychotics, will power is no good.
I have psychotic depression (and possibly bipolar) and take AD's and AP's.
It just sucks. I'm now on a higher dose than before.

I have bipolar aswell, and when I'm down and people mention that it's my mental health I hate it, because I don't want to have bipolar/ depression but actually I'm fighting it everyday.

I also take AD's and AP's but I'm alright at taking them, do you have a tablet phobia, my aunt and brother have it they can't even take paracetamol?

Thanks for your reply. I don't have a tablet phobia but when I become unwell I think my medication does more harm than good. It stops me feeling anything, doing anything etc. Whereas my GP is adamant I feel like that because I've stopped my meds. It's a bit of a vicious cycle.

I complete understand what you mean, the dr have had to switch all my meds up to different times because my AP makes me tired and I was convicted tiredness was causing my depression, and now I've ask for my AD to be assessed because I swear I'm getting withdrawal symptoms in the evening, but dr confirmed that was the case because it was slow release.

It's a frustrating thing with the meds isn't it. I found Quetiapine really sedating and it made me miserable how tired I was all the time. I'm on aripiprazole now which works better for me.

I've taken a higher dose of antipsychotic and the last few days have been a bit easier.