Finding hope

[Jemima14]

I am at my rock bottom. All I want is to lie down and not get up. I've been batteling a long time now, and I have totally lost. I just don't know how to continue on feeling like this and not being able to change it. Just where that leads my thoughts to is such a horror. I don't want that, but I can't bear this and I dont know what to do.

can you tell us a little bit more? are you on medication? married? etc? i understand. its hideous but it can get better

Single mammy to a 14 month old. I've written here alot about trouble I have with my family. Its just too much. I can't abide them treating me like shit, but that then means I'm completely cut off & out in the cold. Ive no help with my girl who has terrible allergies & eczema. Have suffered with depression a long time, on zoloft currently, not working, haha, I have tried councelors, not found one recently I can relate to, I go to a support group which is great, I go to lots of mum & baby groups, and I battle all the time, but Im sick of it, I'm sick of the fight I have to put up to just barely function. Im tired. I can't see anything improving. I physically feel so much emotional pain. If that makes sense. I am just a mess, and Im sick of myself. I've thrown everything I have at making things better, yet I still end up like this.

I am so sorry i haven't got back to you, had to go to work. It does sound very hard indeed. Do you think you could reach out to your health visitor to ask for some support with your DD's allergies and general help. Is there a "homestart" in your area?