I'm fed up of the weight gain, of being obese and the emotional blunting from antidepressants and antipsychotics. I've stopped because I want to feel close to God and the meds prevent it. It's when I'm at my worst that I feel His Holy presence. I'm not psychotic, I'm not unwell, I'm just putting my faith first as I'm a Christian. I haven't to,d my husband as he wont understand but can anyone else relate to this? I'm sick of being medicated.