I really want another baby
But I come up with lists of why I shouldn't dare:
Obese
Increasing age (31)
CMV negative status with a 3 year old in daycare
Maybe Iv had too much EMF radiation
Maybe Iv destroyed all my good gut bacteria by eating crap
Maybe my baby will be the one in a zillion statistic that gets vaccine damaged
Maybe I will get unwell to the point of getting admitted to a psych unit in pregnancy and my DS will go into care
Some I know are rational and some I know are irrational with just a touch of logic
I don't know how to get past this.