Hi.
2 years ago I had what was termed a minor nervous breakdown. I won't go into detail, but I was bed bound for a month, and didn't leave the house for a further 2 months.
Gradually I got better. Currently I'm taking 75mg of Amytriptylene and 40mg Propranolol, although I can take up 120mg on a bad day, but 99% of the time I take 40mg.
Baby is being monitored by Consultant who assures me there is very little risk to baby, and has sent me to Peri Natal Psych, and they are waiting on my GPs sending more information to them. GPs surgery is currently a mess. All 5 GPs left after a contract dispute in April this year, it has been staffed with locums since, none of which know me.
I've just woken up after a mesasley 65 mins sleep, in almost full blown panic attack mode. I dash to the toilet (it also triggers IBS) and stay there for 20 mins. I decided to take an extra beta blocker and get back in bed, where I am now. I've had an awful week and this just tops it off.
No counselling or CBT available, no ability to go private as I'm currently not working and DH is only earning NMW at the moment. And I'm not sure it'd help, anyway, waking up in almost full throttle is really disorientating.
Has anyone ever had these sorts of panic attacks and how the fuck do you cope with them?! Its been 2 years, they have no discernable cause (breakdown was in part due to serotonin syndrome and the physical symptoms of that) and I'm fucking sick of being afraid to go to bed. I've always had depression which has varied in severity over the years, and sleep was always my refuge, and now I don't even have that.