Looking for support here

[charley30]

as I feel I have none . I have suffered on and off for past year initially an overactive thyroid started it all off so now dealing with depression and anxiety and you guys always help me wen I'm having a bad day . Today was awful the last 3 or 4 haven't been too good but I had a severe panic attack this morn wen getting my dd ready for school I always hide things from her but I was in the midst of this and was awful I really think my thyroid condition is upsetting the balance in my body and mind which is why Iv been so anxious and depressed for a few days like scared . I don't get a lot of support from doc they won't come out and Iv been barely able to leave the house lately they've asked me to go and get bloods checked in morn and I'm afraid it's only 15 mins away but I'm already worried . I need a strategy of some sort so that I can get this over with I find it really hard . Iv been trying so hard to get well it's awful feeling like this again currently on sertraline 50 which they've advised increasing to 75 but Iv been sick with throat infection and cudnt stomach the extra I think I may need the increase also on propanolol and diazepam wen needed . Please advise I have no one to go with me or hold my hand and feel so alone with this xx

I'm so sorry that you're feeling like this. Can't offer much support I'm afraid other than hand-holding. Would you feel better getting a cab to the doctors? Try and break down what it is that is making you nervous about leaving the house. It sounds really important that you get seen tomorrow given the awful week you've had. I hope you can come up with a strategy and I hope you can get to the appointment.

Thank you yes I will have to get a cab and get there I need these bloods done then il know what is going on I want to get a hold on things and get the right medication it all just seems to fall on deaf ears all the docs want to do is keep increasing antidepressants but I know if they could sort my thyroid and get it stabilized I would feel better was doing so well for a few weeks . I need to feel well mentally to face these challenges wish I had gone last week wen u felt a bit better to face it but they were supposed to remind me . In hoping the medication will work and distract myself with the phone x

Don't let them pressure you into upping your medication if that's not what you want. Good luck and hope tomorrow is a better day for you. Make sure you reward yourself when you get home, even if it's with something little like a chocolate bar and a cup of tea.

I know how you feel, OP. My doctor's surgery is five minutes walk from my house, and I still dread going when I feel down. I suffer from an under active thyroid and it's left me feeling lethargic and depressed for several years. It takes time to get the meds right, so just try to be patient, but as pp said, don't let anyone pressure you into anything. Yy to taking a cab and you'll feel so much better when you get home after the appt.
Thinking of you.