I apologise if this is the wrong place for this, I'm not sure where else.
Something has been worrying me a bit. I can't cry. My husband left me with 3 young children (youngest 5 weeks old) about 18 months ago - he'd been threatening it for about 6 months prior to that, and I did a whole load of crying and grieving then. However, since he left I have very rarely cried and in the last year or thereabouts I have not done so at all. I do feel the need - like tonight I feel quite low and angry, and just feel like a bloody good cry would really help but I just can't. I'm brought to the edge of tears sometimes (I'm reading the Railway Children to dd1 at the moment and that certainly gets the throat choking!) but something just stops them. It's really frustrating me and I'm starting to find it a bit concerning. I generally feel fine and have been called strong although tonight I am fed up with being strong and just want someone to put their arms around me.