That's the only way I can describe how I feel at the moment. Like even breathing is a huge effort.
I've had PTSD/major depression for about 15 years now and although I've made a huge amount of progress in the past year (was nearly sectioned) I can feel the slow trickle as things start to get harder.
I'm not low in mood or sad but I am just so tired. Every muscle is tired and heavy. I can't concentrate. Can't sleep at all or want to sleep all day.
I'm being a crap mother, wife, friend, worker etc. I can't get my shit together enough to motivate myself. I don't want to feel this way anymore, how many times do I have to conquer my demons then get dragged back down for no obvious reason?
Nothing has changed day to day- work is still demanding, I'm still using my coping strategies (walks and yoga), I'm not drinking alcohol. So why the fuck has it changed?!
I don't mean it to sound like a pity party (I know it does) I just can't understand how my mood can drop so quickly for no clear reason.