I said something in passing this morning that if only I didn't have my children I could end it all and be free of this depression, finally once and for all
Now I am panicking the universe will give me what I want and take my children away from me in some way.
The universe doesn't always give us what we put out does it??
I know on one level I am being highly irrational but it's set off my anxiety when I was already having a terrible day having woken up crying
I don't need this on top of everything else