Fed UP!

[Jemima14]

I'm fed up of being like this. I go through really tough dark times of depression, and its like I have to really really psyche myself up that things can get better and they do for a while, but then I fall back again. Lately this has been much more often like every couple of days. I'm finding it hard to cope alone with my 1 year old, (single parent) if I'm not completly on top of things,its like everything falls to pieces. I can't get anything done while shes awake cause she just wants me all the time. So when she sleeps I'm cleaning, cooking organising etc. It seems crazy there is so much to do, but it seems tehre always is. So I don't get time for me to do anything. So I find this tough, and then it all falls apart, I don't do the dishes, I havn't laid out or clothes & stuff the night before, I havnt prepared food to take out (she has lots of allergies) so then its actually impossible for me to leave the house.

Well, I realise this is a choppy message that dosn't gel together. Thats how I feel my mind is right now. I'm just tired of going from being positive & functioning to depressed & incapable. Help.

I found this period to be the hardest (my little one is 20 months). I'm not a single mum but my partner is away most of the time so I know how hard it is.
I found I had to lower my standards and cheat where I could! I bought disposable wipes and tonnes of kitchen roll to save time cleaning. I made simple food that didn't involve a large amount of washing up and I went out as much as possible sì the house stays tidy!
It will pass, once my DS started walking he started sleeping much better so I can do my housework when he's in bed or while he's pottering around.

I agree with Joopy it is a really tough age but it really does get better. I really resented and fought against being organised in the early years of being a parent but now I embrace it with open arms. Any way I can be more efficient, bring it on, so you are way ahead of the game in that department.

I definitely found getting out of the house every day, especially if I had the opportunity to meet others, was what got me through the tough early years. It will pass and you will feel better .

Thank you ladies. Its nice to know Im not alone and that it will improve. I know this. I just get frustrated for coping better I suppose. If I am not totally organised the night before then leaving the house can take hours, and thats when Im rushing, I don't know why I seem to make things harder by what I do. But I have extra contraints she needs bathing once sometimes twice a day & a minimum of 3 intense cream applications to keep her eczema at bay. I think she is teething, extra cranky & co-insiding with a down spell for me. It just does not feel good.

Thanks for advice.