I have been going through an episode of anxiety and depression for the past year (probably longer if I am honest). It came to a head in February when I had what I suppose could be called a breakdown.
I have been trying so hard to get better. I started off on citalopram which did not work and after trying to boost it with quetiapine and rispiridone I am now taking venlafaxine.
The thing is I feel that the longer this goes on the less support I am getting. It is a bit like when you have a baby or somebody dies and initially you get lots of support but as time goes on people go back to their own lives.
I know that I am better than I have been at my worst but people seem to think that means I am completely better and back to my old self - I can't even remember what I was like before. I am really good at keeping myself together even when I am crumbling underneath. I have told my GP how I feel but she seems to have lost interest. Even my therapist who I have been seeing on and off over a number of episodes keeps saying I am much better and almost that I should think myself lucky because I could be much worse.
I have recently given up drinking because I know its not good for me so I was really hoping I might be feeling a bit better by now but I'm not. I have put on 7lbs since all this started which might not sound a lot but is really making me feel horrible. I feel like stopping the venlafaxine and giving up. I am so exhausted at trying to get better.
Anyone else know what I mean ?