How can I stop theses thoughts

[Monkeybabiess111]

i don't want to die but I can't stop thinking it's easier than carrying on lately, I don't think I would do any thing I've failed in the past and I hated myself more.
I've to start taking citalopram I can't until Sunday as my ds has something on Saturday and the side effects look scary to.
I want this constant pain to go I don't even feel real anymore, i wish I could sleep and just not wake up not sure if that's because I'm barely sleeping or truly what I want everything is confusing and I feel everyone around wants me to go crazy or stay this way.
I just want my brain to shut up how can I do that?

hey sweetheart. hang in there, you'll be ok in the end. you are much loved!!

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