Just feel LOW & have a 'Cant be bothered' feeling.

[MusicLover]

I dont actually feel depressed as such, just rather low. I have felt it creeping on for a few weeks so its no big surprise to me that Im feeling this way.
Sometimes though I feel there needs to be a reason why I feel this way, but not sure there really is one!
I have suffered with depression in the past & was on AD's for around 8 years. I weaned myself off them late last year, & Ive surprised myself how well I coped off them, this is the longest Ive gone without taken them.
I have to admit its the anniversary of losing my baby DD on Sat 2nd Dec. So not sure if that is contributing to my low mood. It will be 9yrs since I lost her, but since having my DD 3 yrs ago Ive been so much better about it & stoppped dwelling on it too.
My Dh is great, but because he really cant cope when Im depressed, he doesn't know how to handle me at all. So I dont even mention to him when I feel like this. Although I can tell him anything else, we talk alot, hes my soul mate really.
I just cant be bothered to do anything at all, whether it be cleaning, shopping - what ever! I been into town this morning I just couldnt face getting anything for Xmas, & ive not even started yet! Ive got 2 DC's & 3 Step DC's!
The more I think about it all the more I feel NNNNNOOOOOOO dont want to do it.

Think I need a good kick up the backside really.

Just needed to get that off my chest-sorry-Rant over.
Feel stupid in a way as there are so many more of you that are in worse situations than me.

MusicLover, I know how you feel, I'm having bouts of 'want to run away' (that's the better ones). Wouldn't class myself as depressed anymore either, but guess sometimes it just gets too much and I only have 2 dc's! And yes there are heaps of people out there who are most definitely worse off than me, however, when I'm in one of my moods... I really don't care. Sounds terrible doesn't it, but think it's perfectly normal, because know that others are worse off doesn't really help does it

And well done on stopping the ADs.

As for not wanting to do anything... I maintain if the basic needs of the family are met, 'stuff it' I'm huddling up on the sofa and mope for a bit. Which usually results in ds (2.2) trying to sneak up on me to 'assault' me which makes me laugh inspite of myself.

Not much help, but some reassurance that you're not the only one going through phases like that

MrsJobangles

It does help to know that there are people (like you) that do understand where Im coming from.
I know exactly what you mean about others being worse off, no it doesnt help!
LOL at mope on sofa, as it was a toss up whether I came on MN or lazed on the sofa, MN won & my 'huff puff' sighs have lessoned
Ive gotta go to work in 2 hours & not looking forward to that. Just feel so pessimistic about everything.
Do you feel like that MBj?
Are you on AD's or did you manage without them?

OMG MrsBo, just noticed how Ive spelt your name
That made me laugh I suppose.

hmmm maybe a new name for me LOL

I also work and sometimes I get so fed up with it all. The nursery/school run, the hectic etc. Saying that now my work is coming to an end and we'll be moving in February, the logistics of which naturally I get stuck with... it just gets too much at times and I don't recognise myself anymore. Lately have been wondering wtf did I have children? Pessimistic enough? . I try and keep a brave face most of the time and usually am outwardly quite up beat but sometimes I just don't muster the energy for that and then I just don't go out iykwim... no point dragging everybody else down with me

I used to be on AD's for PND after having dd and then ds. Then came off them and did alright for a while. Then I had all sorts of health problems and actually went to see a doc back home in Germany as the GPs here were useless. Turned out my body was responding with illness to depression, like some people get ulcers but I wasn't that lucky... that doc put me on hopps, valerian, melissa and St Johns Worth which left me totally whacked and I stopped taking it after 3 months. HOwever it at least gave my body time to recover. Close to going out and get some 'happy pills' again. Doesn't help that ds is still a terrible sleeper and sleep deprivation is NOT my friend...

ah god I need my sleep too, you sound just like me. Had 2 half years of gettin up every night with 9yoDS. It made me into the stressed out mother from hell.
Yea I sometimes wonder if I could do it all over agian, would i do it

my mum has just arrived will post more later
sorry

no probs I'm just glad my mother doesn't live in the same country... makes me much happier

as for sleep... haven't had a decent night's sleep in about 5 years, dread to think of all the energy I'll have once I get sleep again!

Would I do it all over again? No idea. Probably would be a bit more careful re conceiving, both ours were 'accidents' though we did want kids just not when they happened . Also if I'd do it all over again I'd cut up credit cards etc. from the day go as opposed years down the line heavily in debt. That's another point causing 'low' feelings... why is London so bl**dy expensive?