For those that followed the sexual abuse thread a while ago, I said how my grandfather had abused me for years. He finally died on Sunday. I haven't slept since then. I feel both furious that he never got any kind of punishment, huge regret that I didn't tell anyone, and just terribly sad that this is all still affecting me. I thought him dying would just end all of the feelings about the abuse, but actually it seems to have made them worse. I can't talk to anyone in real life, so I am just wanting a couple of cyber hugs and to know that I am not alone in this.