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So I went to the Drs today. I was to a weight management thing as I am obese. Today was about seeing a councillor and trying to find a reason for my overeating. I have always used it as a form of self harm. I sabotage myself with food.

Anyway we were talking about when it all started, the pnd I suffered with each child, my childhood and some problems at home. We then talked about how I don't like social situations because of my size, exhausted all of the time, feeling weepy. Anyway She told me I was depressed and my serotonin levels are low and I need to take anti depressants for life. She explained that if I was diabetic i wouldn't question about taking insulin so I shouldn't worry about the anti depressants. She was amazing and I am booked in with a phsycogist next week. I pick up my citlopram tomorrow.

I don't feel depressed like I did with Pnd is that normal?

Dh suffers with ptsd so home life is a bit stressful and I don't feel i can talk to him about this at the moment as he will blame himself and i don't feel I have strength to support him through it today. I've come home and feel very emotional and exhausted. Is this normal?

Is anyone else on anti depressants permanently? I was on them for about 9 months years a go but that's it. Citlopram worked for me but was an arse to come off with the head zaps.

Sorry for the spelling mistakes I just wanted to let it out.

I think it's very unusual for a GP to talk of "taking ADs for life" although she sounds like she took time to listen to your difficulties. I honestly can't see the point of taking ADs if you don't feel depressed.

It sounds more like therapy would help, rather than ADs.

Having said that I wish I'd stayed on the ADs I was on for 15 years without any problems at all, and 4 months after coming off them (very gradually) I relapsed and have experienced varying degrees of fluctuations in my depression for the past 5 years. I'm on 2 ADs and about to add a 3rd but the bad days just arise out of the ether and can go on and on....then miraculously stop and I'm ok for a time, and then BANG without any trigger I'm crap again.

I could never make it off anti depressants but unfortunately they brought in new guidelines so decreased the dose and they stopped working. I wouldn't worry about ADs for life, just take them and see if they work for now

Thanks for the advice. The Dr was telling me that I don't produce serotonin and as I had a family history of depression (my dad is fine but has been on AD for 30+ years my brother 10+) that's why I will be on them long term.

I feel wobbly today. It's as if I was coping ok but now I've let it out so to speak I feel like shite and want to curl up under a duvet and not come out for a while.

Forgot to add I will be having weekly psychologist appointments too.