suicidal compulsion

[Wryip11]

I have made numerous attempts over the past few months and it is really starting to feel like a compulsion. I cannot stop thinking about it / wanting to do it even though I am finally beginning to feel a bit better (think ADs working at last) and some of the time know I don't actually want to die. Is there any way to deal with / work through this?
Not getting any help from mental health services - waiting to be allocated (2 months now). GP keeps referring me for contact within 72 hours but nothing happens ...

I am not qualified to give advice but feel i should offer what i can-would caring for a pet help? or getting outside for a walk or a bike ride? Are there any support groups you could join ? Can your gp access any other services than the one you are waiting for? Is volunteering a possiblity? Religious organisations offer pastoral care. Hope someone comes along soon with more concrete suggestions.