I hate my job, I'm lonely, I am tired all the time, craving sweet things even though I'm trying to lose weight and am snappy and grumpy most of the time. Am I depressed or do I just need to snap out of it?
My job situation has been very up and down recently resulting in 2 redundancies in a year and now I'm working from home in a job which is very dull and does not interest me at all but there is very little else in my industry. The redundancies have stung and I am still very hurt by the most recent redundancy as I felt I gave so much to the project and the team (I had worked with them in a different capacity for years before being convinced to join the actual team) and then was let go.
I'm lonely even though I'd say I have a good circle of friends but not having much interaction during the day is really getting me down. I'm grumpy and very snappy with dh and ds over things which I know are irrational and previously I would barely have noticed - ds waving his fork about at the table for example or dh having done a hundred things might not have done the 101th thing which sends me into a silent rage broken up with snippy passive aggressive remarks.
I'm knackered, ds sleep has gone downhill recently and he's up and down a few times a night which is really exhausting after almost a year of decent sleep.
I feel really teary and could cry ten times a day if I let myself.
Is this just what happens and do I need to suck it up and pull myself together or am, as I suspect, mildly depressed? I don't want to take anti-depressants so I don't see the point of bothering a doctor. Is there anything I could do which might help before resorting to pills?