I want to run away

[MummySparkle]

Pretty much that really. I am utterly at breaking point and I need a break from it all.

I want to fill up my car with petrol, grab a few changes of clothes, get a load of cash out of my bank account and drive wherever the roads take me. And turn my phone off. Find a campsite and just chill for a few days where nobody can find me and I don't have any responsibilities. Somewhere remote where I can hide and sleep and just be with nature for a bit. I just want to sign out of my life for a few days until I'm ready to come back. Being a mum is too hard. Being a partner is too hard. Everything feels like a chore at the moment.

It's not an option though. I have to stay and keep looking after the DCs, but I desperately want to go. Sometimes it feels the only way to get a break would be to do something drastic and spend a few days in hospital.

DP doesn't understand

I understand. Its relentless and thankless. Plan a few hours off tomorrow. I do this now as before i was always working child minding or house stuff.

Are you sure you can't get away for a few days? Is there anyone who could look after your DCs?

Thank you for your replies. We had a lovely family day at the seaside yesterday and I'm feeling a little better.

I can't get away for a few days. DP would never forgive me. He doesn't understand my need for my own space. I haven't been alone for more than an hour or two since DS was born. Before I met DP I could go days without seeing another person, I was very much a loner. I guess I just miss that.

DP and MIL could look after the kids, but DP would never agree to letting me go.