Pretty much that really. I am utterly at breaking point and I need a break from it all.
I want to fill up my car with petrol, grab a few changes of clothes, get a load of cash out of my bank account and drive wherever the roads take me. And turn my phone off. Find a campsite and just chill for a few days where nobody can find me and I don't have any responsibilities. Somewhere remote where I can hide and sleep and just be with nature for a bit. I just want to sign out of my life for a few days until I'm ready to come back. Being a mum is too hard. Being a partner is too hard. Everything feels like a chore at the moment.
It's not an option though. I have to stay and keep looking after the DCs, but I desperately want to go. Sometimes it feels the only way to get a break would be to do something drastic and spend a few days in hospital.
DP doesn't understand