Really Bizarre

[LindzDelirium]

Hi I am new to Mumsnet but looking for some advice really. I am 30 with a wonderful husband who I adore and a beautiful 4 year old daughter who has just started school. I've have everything I want and I am so happy however I have this underlying urge to give it all up and run away. I just have this bizarre odd feeling that my daughter would be better off without me and that I don't deserve her - has anyone else ever had this feeling?

Any advice greatfully recieved!
Thanks

you're not alone, ive been diagnosed with depression since i was 11 years old. im now married with 3 wonderful kids but it still bothers me. thw change in the weather could have a lot to do with it. i suffer from S.A.D at this time of year. are you a stay at home mum

Ive suffered with depression alot in the past, but I can honestly say Ive not experienced the feeling of my kids being better off without me, because Im too much of a worrier to 'put on' anyone else & worry if they had a worse time with anyone else.
But I sympathise with your thoughts love.

As to giving it up & running away, Ive thought about that alot but its only a passing thought, something Ive never wanted to put into practice.But I think alot of mums will agree that they think the same too, even if they dont feel depressed.

Hope someone else can give some sound advice to you.

Hi and thanks. I work full time I went back to work when my daughter was 10 weeks so I have always worked, which I enjoy.Of course I suffer from Working Mum's Guilt but my daughter has always thrived at nursery etc, I just feel like I don't deserve her or my hubby and I ought to be punished by not having them. How weird is that? I don't think I am depressed per se, although having thankfully never been in that position I wouldn't know how it feels?

thanks for caring xxx

Its not weird at all to feel the way you do. I admire anyone that works full time with children, just being a mother is hard work!
I just think us mothers have guilt no matter what we do.
Some mothers have to work full time to make ends meet. You may feel that some mothers are lucky to be able to afford to stay at home with their children.
One thing I can imagine is that working full time & having a family must be very wearing & hard for you. Do you feel you have enough time for your daughter & husband with working f/t? Is this maybe why you feel guilty.
Do you feel like this all the time or is it 'just sometimes'.
I only work p/t which is 'relief work' so I work around my children. I often feel guilty for not being able to spend time with the kids at week ends as I work nearly every one!

Have you always felt this way Lindz?