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[OhNotAgain]

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Hiya,

((hugs)) Id visit GP and up your dose for a while. Once I spiral down, I find it hard to climb back up again, its easier if I dont slip in the first place. I have "emergency" diazepam in my drawer, so when I feel myself go abit funny, I take one or two, rather than it grip me again full whack. Dont try and be brave, you can always drop your dose back down.

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You haven't failed, you have achieved an incredible amount the last few months and especially the last few weeks, and now that pressure is off so you don't have to keep going, you're having a sort of rebound - I'm not putting it very well but I hope ykwim, anyway please don't feel it as a failure, it's just a little downward blip in your upward path.

Could you take a higher dose as Qp suggests to help keep you going till Thursday?

I am taking ADs at the moment and have done a few times in the past.

This second time I was gutted to be going down that path again, but this time, I recognised the symptoms and went to GP.

I have had a few wobbles this time and will go back if they last any longer than a couple of days.

Use your knowledge as a positive thing.

Of course we will always have things in our life that push us to the limit and when suffering from depression it is difficult to distinguish the difference between life and a depression that needs treating. Either way you have made the right decision by making that appointment.

Like me I imagine that you know you will feel better at some time but your view is clouded at the moment. Keep going and slowly but surely you come out at the other side again.

Apologies for crap grammer and spelling and waffling.

been there...done that ,...bought the tshirt!! it is not a failure...the analogy i use is this:

if you had a really bad chest infection...you'd go to the docs, get anti biotics,take them and see what happened. If you still weren't well, you 'd go back and get more anti biotics.....

so if you are still unwell (with depression) you need some more help to get over it.

i came off and went back on ADs a number of times...until i was fully recovered.. it takes time, but i know i would rather have taken the tablets for ever than feel depressed xxx

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You are not a failure. Just getting on with thing is not an option at all if you are ill.

What about changing your AD? Have you had counselling?

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Hello OhNotAgain.

Go back to your GP a.s.a.p.

They should be able to increase your tabs, even for the short term.

I went through an awful time about this time last year, that lasted for a few months.

Had tabs increased to get me through it and then decreased when i felt i was ready.

ohno.

please go back to your GP

get your dosage reviewed and also please please get referred for counselling. you need human as well as medicated support.

good luck tomorrow afternoon.
xx

sorry sorry sorry, missed your post about counselling.

stick with it, but please realise that not all counsellors are good and not all counselling is the right match for what you need.

if it is proving unsatisfactory, talk to your counsellor about this, and if that doesn't work, talk to your GP.

do you know what kind of counselling you are having? is it CBT (cognitive behavioural? sounds like it if you are focussing on here and now)?

Hello (thank you VVVQV for pointing this out).

Don't take it personally that you haven't had many replies, I for one didn't see this before. Everyone loves you and you're the only one who can't see that you've been doing fantastically well. It would be amazing if you hadn't had a setback in your personal health with all that's happened, I think you're wonderful.

Look, you are experienced in depression now. Believe me, it makes it easier to handle when you've been through it before. Because you know that it will come to an end. You're better equipped to handle it having experienced it before. You know seeing your GP makes sense, so do it. And you know that feeling you should achieve things every day is putting too much pressure on you what with everything else. All you should be aiming to do at the moment is to get through the day all in one piece, with your children all in one piece, everything else can wait. You're only one person, human, not a team of workers or a magic elf that can perform miracles.

Have you considered looking into light therapy?

I still have some leeway in my ADs doseage, so I up it at this time of year but then drop down again in the Spring. If I was at max doseage I would seriously consider looking at alternatives to take me through the darker months.

Any time you need an extra shoulder for crying, ranting, been there done that conversations I will be here. You can have my mobile number too if you want. I know sometimes when you feel this low you need a lifeline at strange times of the day & night. I am available 24/7 if you need someone.

antlxstew at yahoo dot co dot uk

much love xx

I posted on the 'other' thread but not sure if you saw it - I presume it's been deleted as I can't find it. Is your appointment today? Please keep posting and let us know how you get on, you know you will get support on here. xxx

ONA, how are you?

Don't feel guilty - you have nothing to feel guilty about. You have had a very tough time of it recently & you have done so well in keeping it all together. It is not suprising that you are now feeling very down.

Was today your doctors appointment?

I wish there was more I could do to help you.xxx

I agree with what you say about it being good to off load the day to day stuff but that you need something to help you long term. Discuss with this your counseller, Im sure there must be an alternative.

Good luck and wishing you strength for doctors appointment tomorrow.