At all. Ever. Not allowed. Have done all the things like go to A&E etc. over the years, too ill to now. They hate me, they have made me feel like this. I needed help and they bullied and excluded me, they like to tell me i'm a shit person. The CMHT and crisis team I mean. Over ten years of trying.
I guess my time is up, i have tried a long time. No-one can love me without turning out to be abusive. No one wants me. Unless i do everything they say. it hurts so much and i cant tell anyone because i must hide it or they think i'm baad/attention seeking, or dont want to know me. I cant o they act any more. Dont want to speak to samaritns, want proper friends or partner who cares. wont ever happen, they all treat me bad so i have to leave or they leave.