I've experienced pnd before- the numb staring into space, can't raise a smile and crying all the time kind, but this feels different. I feel like I'm loosing my mind. I've been a bit erratic since my lo's birth 5 months ago. If anything goes wrong I just loose it, I can't cope with stress, I loose my temper with dp, I don't know what to do with all the frustration I hold. I have done stupid things like bang my head against the wall. I try not to take it out on my children but I have lost my patience with my 10 year old and shout at her too much which is out of character. I cry and cry. Feel like running away. This can last off and on for a couple of days. Then though, I can be fine and "normal" for days before I go mad again. Is this depression? I do feel very low and pointless and worthless when I'm like that, and I'm letting my daughter down. She was looking forward to her brother arriving and now everything's falling apart . If anyone recognises this and it is depression then what is the usual treatment? Tablets I've been prescribed before have been serotonin re-uptake inhibitors which picked me up. I'm really concerned I'll be given some kind of tranquilisers which will dumb me down and worse, be addictive.