just a general rant. do please ignore

[NappiesGalore]

bloody stupid thread title. if i want it to be ignored, why am i posting it? stupid cow.

dont waste any sympathy on me, im quite sure i dont deserve it, i just need to offload beacaue the tension is welling up in me and im verbally lashing out at the kids and thats not on.

im not depressed, im angry frustrated wound up and sooooooo dissapinted with myself.

i think its the most important job in the world, shaping the next generation, but im SHIT at being a SAHM. im SHIT at housework and ive spent so much of my life pissing about that i have SHIT emplyment prospects too. shit shit shit shit sshit.

as you can see (if youre reading) im not v positive todfay butt hen, i am mentruating for about the fourth time in as many years, first time in about 20 months. i could put it down to that (but it would be an excuse)

oh shit. im so pissed off with myself today.

Hi NG,

Anything in particular triggered feeling ike this or just general crappness of human existence?

Nappies, the very fact that you're writing about being shit prob means you're not at all!!!!! As you say you are doing one of the most important jobs in the world. It is NOT an easy option. Not in the slightest. Hopefully by writing your post you've managed to get some of your frustrations out...now get yourself some Playdoh & give it a good pummelling!

{{{{hugs}}}}

housework has nothing to do with how good a mother you are NG. if it did my kids would have wasted away long ago!

i'm in the same situation as you at the minute so i know how you feel. are there any courses you could do? or work from home maybe?

Period is an excellent reason for feeling like that!!!!!!!!!

First of all you are a sahMUM - not a cleaner - housework isn't part of mum job description.

I feel sure you're not a crap mum... as i've been told lots of times - if you care enough to worry that you are, then you aren't

Housework is not a priority. As long as you can feed & clothe the kids, don't worry about the housework

im on my own with the 3 (under 3) and they are so good and so loving and so trusting but the 10mo wants to be picked up so much and i just want to hide away and bury my head in decorating stuff or mn or anything but just sitting with the kids and wiping bums and telling everyone off all the time for minor infractions (is that a word??). its just the drudgery of it

but what really gets me is that i hate myself for feeling that way. why on earth is it drudgery to spend time with my children?? theyre the best 3 people on the planet in every way as far as im concerned and they deserve ...

...i dunno. better than this. better than a mum who is bored and tense and snappy.

and really, thank you for the kind words.

am ashamed of myself garnering sympathy from people who are probably working 10 times harder than me under 50 times more stress and pressure.

sorry

3 under 3 must be incredibly hard work.....I was feeling pretty tense with my teething fractious toddler but there's only 1 of him! Of course you need a break. Anyone would.

Is there anyone who could have the 2 older ones so you can take the little one out for a walk in the buggy...so you can go at your own pace (rather than a toddlers dawdle)?

you have nothing to be ashamed about & should not be apologising.

nope, not working harder. i just have 2!

fabulous as they are lets face it, kids aren't the most mentally stimulating company for a grown woman and it can be sooooo tedious

Am going to have to go now Nappies as DS has woken up.....you are doing a brilliant job...try & find someone to give you a hand....just for half an hour so you can get time out. Keep going!

Want to know a potentially lynchable secret? I loathed it when my children were small. All I could see around me were women having wonderful relationships with their children and meanwhile all the wooluffcubs got was me, crabby, stressed, and beating myself up for not being the ultimate "shall we make a card today children" mummy.

I did actually describe myself as bitch mother from hell in a post on MN, and the wonderful JanH let me know that most people have moments like that. I just need to think sometimes "I'm a good enough mother", and focus on the moments of fun in amongst the dross.

I'm sure you're a good enough mum, the fact that query whether you are are not is a pretty good indicator that you are

I feel a bit like this today. 3 years into being a sahm and Im slowly losing the plot. Ive just been told I havent got a job I appled for and I couldnt feel more worthless right now.

However, I have arranged to go out tonight to try and forget about it all. Any chance you can have a night out to give you a break from it all, or even lunch with a girlfriend over the weekend?

yes. thanks. i do know that really (just dont feel it at all today)

actually, just went to check on them and found them making a 'potion' in a bucket using all - and i mean all - the bottles of shampoo etc they could reach. almost exploded, but remembered doing the same as a kid and saw how much they were enjoying the enterprise of it, so i took the best face wash away and let them get on with it. even helped sqeeze some stuff out.

i think thats good for a few 'lets make a card mummy' points, no?

Absolutely

Besides - imagine the fun of washing your hair in "magic potion" shampoo - if you can get the stuff back in the bottles!

Wow, your the bestest

your a better woman than me, i have exploded to find dd emptying my good toner into her bath!