I can't stop crying today

[DumbledoresGirl]

Does anyone here love me enough to give me a little time?

whats wrong DG?

Oh hugs DG. What is the matter?

one of those days eh ddg?
We all have um, whats up hun?

oh no how cam we help?

Thanks for replying. I am feeling so low. Really scared and unable to face my life. Also my slef esteem is at the bootom. I don't think anyone can help me right now, but it is good to get a response from you guys. Thanks.

saying hi to you too

xxx

Indulge yourself DG, always the best thing to do when you are feeling crap. I am a firm believer in the get into bed with a bar of chocolate(or the sensible equivelent)school of handling really crap days.
Or there is the other school of thought, the go to the gym or take some exercise school which isn't half as popular round at chez carmenere, but I believe that works too.

Hope you feel better soon.

Just one of my worries

What did I say to scare everyone away?

i am here..will read your link now

DG i am so sorry. My internet connection gave up (something about a network cab;e came loose) and then i had to pick DS1 up from nursery.

I don't really know how to to help with ur worries over diabetes except to say that if my boys haven;t eaten for a while ie no snack and its nearly lunch, then on occasion they do go floppy and tired but i put it down to normal drop in blood sugar rather than anything else. likewise when DS1 seems to drink like a fish i can balance it out because he will have periods where he hardly drinks at all. Would it help tpo keep a diary of food and drink so you can see if a pattern is forming?

What are your other worries?

hi honey...don't know anything about diabetes ( birth more my thing !) you are bound to be feeling low and anxious, have you made a doctors appt.....

Thanks, zippi has put my mind at rest somwehat about the diabetes thing. TBH, that isn't the main reason for my low mood. - just another thing to worry about.

Also tbh, I am more scared than sad today. My dh is away again tonight (common event but it gets no easier for me) and I am so hyped up by my dd being sent home ill yesterday even though she was OK in the end (I suffer terribly from emetophobia - fear of vomiting - and it goes way out of control when dh is away). You know how you sometimes think to yourself, "If only xyz happened, I would be fine?" (even if you secretly know there is more to your troubles than xyz). Well, all I can think right now is "If only dh could have a job which meant he was home every night, I would be able to face this phobia with more strength". But there is no way he is going to get a job that doesn't involve travel and I just see endless years stretching out in front of me of paralysing, pointless fear.

I am such a strong woman in every other respect. How can I be brought so low by this?

Oh and before anyone suggests the GP or therapy, can I just say, I have tried!

CBT?

((hugs)) DG>.twill be ok...every one has a point at which they just have to let go..can' be strong all the time..xx

Just thought I'd come on and give you a smile as I know that some days it just feels like everything is too much. and another for luck x

How are u doing today DG?

May not be able to get back on this evening but at least you know i was thinking of you

How kind of you to ask mumofsmonsters.

I am still feeling like the zest has been removed from me - actually that is very apt as I do feel thin skinned at the moment! - but I survived my night alone without dh, he gets home tonight about 11 ish, and so I am feeling a bit stronger today. The fear has gone for now, just the sadness remaining.

Why so sad DG?

Glad your fear has gone, i'm not sure that i could have helped with that. Andf also glad your DH is home later on

Where to start? Apart from having 4 lovely children and a reasonable relationship with dh, nothing much is right.

God does that sound awful?

No not at all. Is it more than sadness do you think?

hi, just read your thread,hows your dd today?

sorry you feeling so down

Not depression if that is what you mean.

But yes, more than sadness: loneliness, lack of fulfillment, boredom, low self esteem, poverty, worries about family, lack of clear goals..loads of things.

So many really and I never get anything done about any of it. Sometimes I just get on with it and sometimes it overwhelms me, like now. But I would say I have never been 100% happy and don't believe I ever will be.

Dd is fine today thank you and was fine yesterday. I think she just gave everyone a bit of a scare - probably lack of sugar or something. Hey, you couldn't say that about many children these days, could you?!

DG, i didn't mean depression but i am glad you knew what i meant. I asked because i feel like that most of the time, not down enough for any pills or treatment but a sadness that is deeper than just being sad if that makes sense?

There is always something to think about, always something that needs doing and only occasionally do i remember to take a step back and tell myself off. We have no money either and this time of year makes it really hit home that i can't give my boys what they really want.

I have to go out in a few mins but i think you are on my msn list (musicianswidow at hotmail dot co dot uk) if u need/want me x

Yes I know I have an underlying sadness because if I do those questionnaires that ask about your feelings/attitudes, even if I am feeling fine at the time, I always come out as dissatisfied with life!

Yes I have you on my msn list I think.