I posted at the end of May because I had come off citralopram and was feeling really low. I had lots of supportive responses and at times I felt like I could get through it. But now I feel the lowest I've ever felt. It was triggered by a falling out with a friend who also happens to be my business partner. I work 3 days a week and I have also started a small business. It's one where lots of people depend on it operating. What was once a pleasure and an exciting venture now feels like a burden. I feel trapped. I can't eat, I'm struggling to sleep. I'm holding it together just. But its impacting on my dh and my 3 dcs who are worried about me. I keep having mini panic attacks and feel restless, tired and tearful all at the same time.
I'm worried that I'm a burden on my friends who have their own lives to live.
I went to the doctor yesterday and I'm back on the citralopram but I know it will take a while for the effects to kick in.
I feel so lost I don't know what to do.