Was doing really well. Nearly 2 years with no admissions. My twins are almost 5 months, it's been extremely hard but I have been well.
Feels like everything has come crashing down. Not sure how I find myself here again but Im sitting sobbing and thinking about suicide.
I know I'm so lucky to have such incredible children and I know what my death would do to them but that doesn't stop my head telling me over and over even in the gaps between the clock ticking that it would be better if I was gone.
I'm just so tired. I can't see any respite.