It's my birthday today

[ginmummy]

It's my birthday today and the people who matter don't seem to give a toss. My mother and sister asked a few days ago if I wanted to go out for lunch today, to which I said yes, but today has just gone by like any other Sunday when ds is at his dad's. I'm now sat here having almost finished a bottle of wine and I just don't care any more. I'm not after sympathy or happy birthdays, just wanted to say how utterly fed up and low I feel and that this has to go down as the worst birthday I've ever had. I just wished I'd known I was going to be on my own today because I would have planned something to stop me feeling like this.

I'll piss off abroad on my own for my 30th next year. Fuck everybody else's plans.

birthdays are such a pressure, arent they? i just hate to feel that you've got to have a great day, no matter what, and when you dont, you just want to cry.

you can get your own back when it's your birthday, and treat them all to a taste of their own medicine. very thoughtless of them.

put on some nice music, be mellow, buy some chocolate and maybe rent a movie. dont let them spoil your evening too.

i hate birthdays and i nearly forgot mine back in september, it was only when my sister asked me what i wanted for my birthday i remembered. i told her and all my family not to bother. i would rather them spend money on the kids.
sorry to hear u had a crappy birthday. can't believe your family ask u out then don't go. what happened?

i think it should be against the law to celebrate birthdays after 21!
i'm sorry you're having a crappy birthday.having had crap birthdays every year since i was 25 i always said i was going to go for a piss-up inblackpool for my 30th no matter what.
i am 30 on march 1st next year...and i am expecting baby no.5 on march 14th.my last 3 labours were induced at 38 weeks due to pih...

guess i wont be going to blackpool!

have a bottle of wine for me,the night is still young,it could get better

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My sister was having lunch cooked for her and mum decided to clean out the shed and start decorating whilst I was in the shower. I feel guilty and ungrateful as they've bought me some lovely presents but I really, truly and honestly would rather have no presents and have the people whom I love and care about around me.

I've just had a Dominos pig fest and the wine is kicking in so I don't think I'll be far off in bed. I honestly haven't felt this low or lonely on my birthday since I was 10.

divastrop and mellowma - I'm actually looking forwards to turning 30. I know life is whatever you make of it but I've heard that women in their 30s have better sex as they know what they want and can express it in a constructive and effective way in the bedroom, and they are generally more confident than women in their 20s. I (mostly) enjoyed my 20s from about 23 onwards, especially as when you're 27 you can become a magistrate which means that you're judged to have the life experience and wisdom to pass judgement on your peers. 28 is a nothing age which just serves to remind you that you're gettin older and thus should be growing out of any irrisponsible ways that you enjoyed in your early 20s. Now that I'm 29 I feel I should be getting ready to embrace proper adulthood in the next decade and age box of 30 to 39 years.

I'm talking absolute bollocks now so I'm going to go to bed. Thank you all for being so kind.

Tomorrow is a new day and a new start.

Happy Birthday Ginmummy. Big hugs. x