Bipolar but allergic to meds...

[windchimes23]

So I've been through most of the the SSRIs (induced mania), SSNRIs (induced psychotic mania) and mood stabilisers (Stevens Johnson Syndrome - that was the worst one).

So now I'm drinking and taking benzos to knock the edge off. I'm rapid cycling, but I'm working, taking care of my children and keeping house. My relatives are commenting that I look deathly ill.

I'm too scared to take meds. Drinking makes me depressed, valium levels me out.

I've had enough of this fucking shit.

I'm not suicidal, I'm not doing any SI but I've had enough. No one, not even the expensive Psychatrists or the lovely stay in the Caprio Nightingale has helped.

I just have to live with this and it's shit. There is nothing I can do.

Finding the right bipolar treatment is hard. I'm in the position of sacrificing my physical health to stay stable. It really sucks.

I'm also working on a WRAP (Wellness Recovery Action Plan) at the moment. Some people use it as an alternative to meds. Might be worth looking into for you?

Thanks I will look into it, it looks hopefully.

Have you tried any anti-psychotics (quetiapine is an excellent mood stabiliser) of lithium? If you get on with either of those you may not need an antidepressant.

I can't have lithium due to irregular heartbeat. Quetiapine is a no because I had one epileptic fit when I was a baby.

I'm a positive malady of allergic reactions. I just want to have a good old moan

Thanks for the suggestions though, I guess I just want a miracle cure.

Don't we all?