Done something very stupid

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Hi have NC now
I contacted a parent from my dd new school, having not met them before I just wanted to find out about the school from their own experience. I assumed I had deleted my previous posts before messaging but later to my horror I discovered I had only deleted a few posts and not the vast majority. Lots of personal relationship troubles and health problems were mentioned and I feel really sick that The parent may have read all this information about me. I suffer from anxiety and possibly depression and as soon as I realised my heart sunk and really wanted to die! I have had a couple days to get used to this parent knowing about my private life and thoughts, I haven't written anything to make me look bad if anything they may feel sorry for me but I am a closed book usually, a very private person and I had intended to stay aloof and not get involved with playground politics. I feel so sick that whilst this person is being really lovely and we will be meeting each other on the first day I can't help but feel this person may be laughing behind my back or may use it against me -I will be seeing this person for the next few years at least and it is making me sick. Not the best first impression I feel so embarrassed and really anxious. Please can someone advise the most sensible way to deal with this!
Sorry for long post I want to feel anxious about my pfb starting school and not over something like this sorry for crazy long post

I understand how you must be feeling but the likelihood is that they won't have even bothered searching your previous posting history.

If they have and they are going to judge you - well they 're not worth bothering with.

Try to take the view that most people are nice and even if they read personal stuff about you would never use it to gossip or laugh about. I would stop reading if I came across something like that and file under None Of My Business.
She's offered to help out a new school parent, so is probably friendly.
You could mention the message was tagged onto the end of personal info and see if she noticed it, or assume she didn't- whichever seems the best for you.

I honestly don't know how to search back posts of other people on here, have never done it and wouldn't have any interest in doing it. Hopefully your school contact is exactly the same.

Same here, OP. If I did come across previous posts which were obviously about personal stuff, I would stop reading as it would not feel right to me knowing someone's personal stuff when they hadn't told me about it in RL.

Thanks everyone you are right, I guess I read a few posts on here speaking about being outed and I felt I should have covered my tracks just incase
Thanks for your reassuring words
Xx