IMS... need to moan and vent and MNers are fab

[Mummymonster]

Sorry to dump on you lot again

Am I being me me me here? I'm in th mist of an MS flare up, bad for me but not disabling or anything. I'm pretty positive about my illness but this flare up has shook me up and I'm scared. I try not to let it get to me usually but this one has made me think.

I'm a SAHM with a precosious 3 yr old DS, he is the light of my life...yesterday's pearler was he came to see me cos DH told him I wasn't well and he said 'mummy I love you' then 'Are you better now?'

DH took 3 days holiday, went back yesterday, came home, told me he's working late tonight then said 'I told them I couldn't work late tonight because of your situation' expecting me to be grateful.He says he doesn't want to let his colleage down but I'm still not 'well'. I've kept up with the housework, ds etc and at no point has it been acknowledged. Today I told MIL that I appreciate his work et al but I'm not called Lazarus and I've yet to see Jesus.

I think for everyone else it would be easier for all if I just hauled up the white flag and gave up. Why should I keep trying so hard not to let this disease affect my life if I'm just taken for a mug. My feelings are 'If I'm lying down it's easier for you to wipe your feet on me'

otta go collect DS from his nursery so sorry if the above is poor me or vitriolic. I'm just fed up of being taken for granted at my lowest time.

so sorry to hear you are having a bad time and WELL DONE for coping, you sound an absolute star.

Maybe you do shoulder too much without moaning???

Is it time to bang on to your DH about how difficult things are for you; he won't understand fully unless you tell him fully..my DH says that if a man can avoid something emotional or difficult to deal with he WILL!!!! Put it in his face so he can't ignore it!

Though I know this in itself takes effort to do...if it helps I take my hat off to you for coping with your illness, DS and house....when my ds was three I had lots of days when just DS was enough and the house went to pot and that was without the illness to cope with!

I get's worse...only help MIL will offer is how she has put up with more that I'd have nothing if DS didn't work and to buy a wrist link so I can drag DS home from nursey more easily.

It's the 1st time I have ever implied I need more help.

I ggive up, I really do