Don't think any of this will make sense.
I don't want to live or breath anymore but for the next week I'm safe, I haven't put my plan in place.
I need my children to know that none of this is their fault but that I do love them.
I have to make sure the cat goes to a good home, probably with my oldest son.
Cancel all my bills, make sure the house is tidy.
I just want it to be as easy as posible for them.
I can't seem to function, any kind of TV program leaves me in tears and in a panic.
I never seem to get it right when I try to explain what's happening in my head, I just never seem to get it right at all.
I keep seeing things, wolves, blackbirds, beasties, they crawl all over me, won't let me leave my house.
Leaving the house terrifies me. I take my meds but they don't help to much.
I'm loosing the plot all the time over anything and everything. My kids lose it with me because I embarrass them.
It feels like I only have one option
Feel like everything is out to get me.
I feel like I'm going mad and I'm scared ??