Hi!
I have always been like this, liked to be alone, had a few close friends, really close to DH and the kids...
...but I really struggle with people and politics in groups. I struggle so badly with conflict, with people moaning about pathetic things, with seeing other people manipulate friends and acquaintances.
Sometimes I struggle so much with this I make myself believe I am crazy and feel physically agitated for a long time...
...office politics- I e had to leave jobs because I can't cope with it.
...sports clubs and institutes, I really can't cope with the back stabbing and politics
...friendship groups, I avoid them, as I get too upset by the back stabbing
HOWEVER I just can't stop myself being drawn in by it, I stay on the edge but then feel isolated and 'bad' so I engage!
I'm a grown woman what is wrong with me?..
I can spend days and days stewing and obsessing about it all