hey OP :) are you thinking of going on ADs or have you starting them already? hug from me. Are you okay tonight?
I for one can't say categorically ok, these pills are working for me, they're no panacea. But I've been on these particular ones since I think 19 and I'm 21 now and I guess I just compare it to how I was beforehand. I used to be crying all the time. In sixth form I'd go to the library and open a book and well up. Then go home and try to practice piano and cry at the first mistake. Get up the next day and cry cos I was awake again! Was also terrified at what was happening to me.
I didn't get my sparkle back exactly :) but I am much less scared, hardly ever cry for an unknown reason and can wait out the bad patches without feeling like they'll last forever.
When your mood is bad, you're just handicapped, right? Being without a handicap can be a bit like having wings. Just being you without all the wonky brain chemistry, or whatever's going on up there. Less fatigue, guilt, grey whirliness of the mind etc. I suppose people who do have wings get used to them after a time but that doesn't mean wings aren't a pretty good thing to have.
sorry, I'm a bit drunk...but can say that ADs are def worth trying. hope you feel better soon x