In march of last year i took 2 seperate od's, my intention at the time was that i really wanted to die and i just didnt wanna be here anymore. After that i had help from mental health team and also had cbt and was put on sertraline. Have felt fairly 'normal' for quite a while...
However the last im not sure how long, maybe few weeks or so im noticing im becoming progressively more 'down' and more often... im struggling to want to do things, im telling my husband im worthless all the time, im getting harmful thoughts again, i cant be bothered to go into work, whenever anyone tries to talk to me about a problem theyre having all i seem to be able to think is 'i dont care about your problem ive got my own', i want to shop all the time because its the only thing that takes my mind off anything, i sit and stare into space for hours, im sleeping loads.
im still on the sertraline and it ws only a month ago i was thinking of speaking to the gp about coming off it.
things have been a bit difficult lately, i have a chronic illness and have been very up and down health wise, ive not been getting alot of hours at work, my husband is restarting a college qualification through his job, and ive been starting to get really broody, it also hasnt helped that several of our friends are currently either pregnant, trying for a baby or have pregnancy scares.
and it also doesnt help that i want a baby but my husband doesnt!
i dont want to get as bad as i was again but im struggling to find a way out of the pits so to speak, i was sat re reading my cbt exercises the other day but didnt find anything useful in them.